Just a quick reflection from my recent observation.

It always gets on my nerves whenever I see someone being judged/commented on too quickly. Well, I wasn’t gonna talk about myself this time but about just people I’ve seen commenting on others.

Who are we to judge if someone is nice and yet we’ve only spent 30 mins a day with day and who know what they are like for the rest of 23.5 hours? Or, vice versa who are we to judge if someone is a spoilt brat if we never walked in their shoes?

HE wants us to love each other – yes, including the unlovables. Difficult? Absolutely! But who are we to decide which person is worthy to be loved and which ones aren’t? If we ask ourselves, “are we always lovable?” and we know the answer to that. Regardless of these God still loves us the same, if HE only decided to love the lovable, we wouldn’t even qualify for it. Learn to see from God’s perspective, try to see yourself if people’s shoes before commenting on them. Most of the time we have no idea of what they went through to make them who they are today.

Matthew 7:1- "Do not judge, or you too will be judged.

GBU

Muach Muach Ampe Monyong

Not As Bad As We Thought

We (me and my cami of cos =)) never really enjoyed taking photos. We (well, more like I) do like taking goofy ones but never the serious 'girly' ones or lady like or anything along that line...UNTIL yesterday.

The whole experience did not start that smooth actually, a lil drama happened but 'all iz well' at the end. We met with Mr Edward Suhadi, the photographer, joker, jayuser, story teller, amuser, hair stylst (at emergency times haha), noodles analyst, max b and Apple maniac. The guy has his own world going on in his head hahaha. The anticipation of the past 2 days was making me a bit anxious, very anxious actually. I had been researching on how couples pose for their photo shoots and I just couldn't imagine myself striking those poses...until a great photographer came in the picture.

He didn't just demand and direct us but he made us feel very comfy to be in front of the camera and most of the time we forgot that we had the camera with us cos we felt like a couple in a Korea movie haha .. cheesy but I loved it! He didn't just take photos but he also shared about his life and we got to share our lives with him to and let him capture who we are. The guy is a genious at what he does, that's for sure! The way I see it that many people may have the talent but most of the time lacking the connection with the client. My make up artist for today (Olivia) aka my bro's gf (thank God for her!!!) said "Have u guys known each other for a long time?" Me: "just yesterday haha". People think we know each other since we were kids but in fact we just met him 2 days ago. Cool aye?

And to be honest, we were a bit down at first when we saw it didn't stop raining esp @ Hunter Valley. We were like "no sun after that much driving?" but you know what, Mr E.S turned the wet weather into something really fun and romantic. I'm not the romantic type of girl but you know what, I loved itttttttt... so from now on..romance? BRING IT ON! haha.. I love the rain and after so many stories I heart about shooting with sunny weather, I thank GOD for the rain!

My biggest thank is to our GREAT God, we might have prayed for a sunny weather, but HE is the ultimate GIVER. He gives what we need and not what we want. We wanted sunny weather, but HE gave us much more than that, He gave us a great guy who is passionate in capturing our moments, a rainy weather so we can have a tiny weeny bit of romance *blush*, great stories to tell and share and most of all we can embrace HIS grace. I am so touched with the whole experience, with Oli who is willing to take annual leave just to follow us around, hix..can't thank you enough, you are very talented, I loved it, Mr E.S enough said bout him already hehe (refer to above). And most of all to my hubby-to-be, without you this experience would have been tasteless and the romance wouldn't have existed...I love you *still stuck in this romantic mood* sorry to those of you who wanna throw up haha.

If you read this blog, I know what you're gonna ask. The pics are coming soon and we will share them with you guys when the time is right (lho?!) haha kidding!

Great people, great friends, great lover, great time... Time flies when you're having fun!

Til Next Post

Muach Muach Ampe Monyong

GBU

TUHANNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!

TUHANNNNNNNNNNNNNNN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I feel like U deserve more than i've already given
U deserve way better than all the efforts i've put in...
Your capacity to receive is farrrrr greaterrrr than my capacity to give..
Hope You're pleased, my GOD
That's all I care about..

Tested FAITH

Huellow..Im backkk!

Just wanna unload some stuff...

Have u ever experienced when ur faith is tested? I bet it happens a lot in our lives, from the smallest things to the outta-this-world-kinda things. Well, guess what? It happens to me too.!! woohoo..

One second you're like 'on fire' and know exactly what God wants you to do and how we can do it, but the next thing you know, you're 3 steps backwards.... and this is where the test of faith begins. Do we back out on HIM or do we push forward?

1 Peter 1: 3 - 9 - talks about having a genuine faith. The passage mentions our faith is worth far greater than gold... really? YES, really!! Sometimes it's very easy for us to say we're strong, our faith is strong in HIM and nothing can come between us & GOD...but the reality is things happen..bad things happen. This is the test....if we can overcome it, it's a test of how genuine really is our faith in HIM...or do we just say that we have a strong faith but when 'storm' come, we go down with the storm? Well, the test is not for God to know how genuine is our faith, HE knows already!!! doh?!! The purpose for this is so we, ourselves, know how genuine we really are in God...sometimes we overestimate our faith!!

I know when my faith is tested...the harder the 'hit', the more i have reasons to seek HIM. I've been put in situations where I hasd no other option but to find HIM, seek HIS face and know exactly what HIS will is for me. It reallys tested me to go through a process where I need to KNOW His will... not 'i think i know' what God's will is in my life but I had to beg, knock, cry until I really get that conviction. Sometimes we think we've surrendered everything to HIM but our actions/attitudes say otherwise which is why we tend to misunderstood GOD. Walking in God's will is farrrrr better than anything else...even tho' not 100% smooth all the time, but every step in God's track is a faith building moment...every little step is worth so much...every single stumble is a great learning curve...

God can speak to us anytime, anywhere, through anyone/anything. All we need is an attentive ear & sensitive heart to REALLY KNOW it's HIM that speaks. I forgot who said this (maybe kjamz or ci esta) they said, if God wants us to do something, HE will speak to us FIRST before telling it to others...then once we got that conviction from HIM, we usually get confirmation from others. This is so true. Sometimes we think it's a confirmation from GOD and we're really sure that's from HIM..all the physical signs say so...but thats not enuf! We MUST test everything and make sure it's really from HIM and not just our 'feeling'. One clear indication is PEACE. If we feel peace when we make the decision then it's most probably true.

I'm currently having my faith tested in this one area of my life...I can feel the pressure, ppl expect me to perform according to their expectations...well, to be honest, at the moment i'm 10 steps backwards...but I know HE will pull me up, lift me out and deliver me and restore my faith and keep it stronger & stronger. All I can do at the moment is surrender (not just verbally) but in everything I do...

Til my next post... I'll share HIS other goodness..

GBU
muach muach ampe monyong...

Searching ...

Hellow

I'm back again after a few days!

I just wanna share a bit about our church campaign for this month, Live Like You Were Dying. It sounded scary at first coz it mentions somethine bout death. But come to think of it, it actually has a really positive & encouraging message behind it.

One of the many things that I've learnt & discovered from this campaign is that this life is not about us, this world doesn't revolve just around us, to focus on others, to put people's needs first than ours. It's difficult maybe because the nature of human being is selfish.

I have just tried to make every opportunity in everything. One of the many things in my agenda for this campaign is to catch up with old friends I haven't met for a while. It's amazing how I have been given the opportunity to see them again even tho' honestly I would prefer to do something else. But this campaign really reminds me "what if i won't see them again? what if this is the last time im gonna see them?". I realised that my needs/wants are not important anymore.

I'm glad I catched up with one of my very close friends last week and it was sad to hear the story of her life. I didnt plan to meet with her, but I dunno why that day I felt the urge to take her out to dinner and just hang out. It was so depressing to hear and see the bitterness and all the drama that's going on in her life. I was so glad that day I could be 'a pair of ears' for her. Who knows that was my last opportunity to do something for her. Just being on her side seems to make her happy. If that's the only thing I could do, I'm happy.

So, my plan is to catch up with as many of my old friends as possible and not just focus on what I want or what I need from others. But to make the most of our time wisely.

I miss all of my old friends, I forgot how we used to be able to talk about anything anytime for however long it is. Now, we're all busy with our own stuff, it's so hard just to get together for dinner, let alone a whole day thing.

I know sometimes my flesh is weak and I just do whatever I feel like doing. But God speaks so strongly, HE gave an example of Moses, his heart is for the people for HIS nation. He wanted to do the best for his people. God wants me to do have a heart for HIS people. THis is so hard, but it's a lifetime opportunity to speak life into people's life. I'm just lost for words of what HE reveals when we really open up to HIM and most of the time can't help not to be overwhelmed & brought to tears.

SO, it's 3 weeks left to LLYWD. Let us make the most of our time, speak sweeter to those we never did before, love deeper to everyone, forgive more to those who wronged us, *my addition* see/talk to as many people as possibe that we havent met in a while, show love in any kinds to ALL regardless of their race, religion, position, attitute, characters, lovable or unlovable.

Thank you LORD for all the opportunities YOU've given me. I cherish everything from YOU (as said in the bible "everything that comes from HIM is a gift"). I got a few gifts from GOD..how cool!!

That's all from me...im ngantuk hahaha
Ready for tomorrow..

Let HIS love fill and surround all of us so we're never run out of love for other. Let our hearts be an overflowing river of love.

Muach muach ampe monyong..

GBU
Til next post..

Obersever

Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm back lho! Woohoo!

I just feel like sharing something from my observation. I guess I was never an observer, I was always oblivious to wat's goin' on around me and I was always happy, careless. Basically, my motto all this time had been "Ignorance is bliss!". Sometimes, it's easy to be ignorant to people's needs coz that what comes naturally for me. But I know HE's pushing me to be just the opposite of that, go against my 'normal' flow and start being observant and learn to be 'aware' of my surroundings.

Is it difficult? Oh for sure. I had been igonarant all this time and now YOU want me to be 'aware'? The first step I had to take was the WILLINGNESS step. Still not easy, but in the end I just said "YES". Willingness doesn't just stop there, it requires ACTION to back it up. I asked HIM, "what kind of action?". Just start by "observing" HE said.

It's funny what I have found out about myself and about others in a way I would never have done if I wasn't willing in the first place.

One thing I got from this experience is how people react and deal with their situations. It's funny how we sometimes judge things too quickly and categorise them as 'this is bad' or 'this is sooo good' but we never know what happens later. Only when we have finished the race and looked back then we will know whether it's good or bad.

I can share from my recent experience eating mie rica. It was so yummy for sure, I said to myself "this is sooooo goood" but didn't realise what was coming 24 hrs later.... and thennnnnn it happened the most excruciating pain i'd ever felt *no offence, Cha...enak bgt mie ricanya but my tummy couldnt handle it =(. Lesson to be learnt here is that not to judge that sumting 'yummy' will stay 'yummy' on the inside. Sometimes it's just a cover up but the end of it is ugly.

I was reading from Ecclesiastes and it says "it's more important to have a good ending than a good beginning". And if I may add, sometimes it's easier for us to be so excited it things start well and be complacent on how things are, but what is MORE IMPORTANT is to aim for a good ending..and not just good..but GREAT ENDING to what we started. It's funny how I've observed people who started things well but they're now slowly drifting away and can't finish what they started. Long story short, what I got the most is not to get too excited if things start well but GET REALLY REALLY EXCITED when THINGS FINISH WELL!! We don't wanna have a 'sour lolly' experience, sweet at the beginning, but really really sour at the end.

It's 4 months left till end of this year...whatever we've started this year .. regardless whether it's good or bad, ONE thing we need to focus on is to aim for a GREAT ENDING.

My prayer is for blind eyes to see what HE sees, deaf ears be opened, hardened hearts be softened, filled with love and compassion that never runs out and always overflowing.

On this occassion, I would like to say:

Thank YOU for: YOUR Divine Inspiration, Revelation, Creativity, Guidance, Authority, Power, Wisdom, Presence, Unfailing Love, Kindness, True Friendship, Strength, Joy, Trust, Discipline, Answer, Response, Peace, Compassion, Sacrifice, Pain, Holy Spirit, Daily Bread, Provision, Encouragement, Endurance, Healing, Blessings, Comfort, WORD, new Grace every morning, Annointing, Intervention, Miracles, ..... ...... *I'm lost for words...*

Thank you to all my family - mum & dad, bro - love youz so much, I don't see youz much these days & never wanna take things for granted anymore, will embrace each opportunity I get to see youz...thanks for raising me the way you did, must not be easy for youz but thank you for putting up with me all this time and make me who I am today. *time to stop crying*

Thank you to all the leaders for ur authority, vision, trust, faith in me. Sometimes I don't even have the same faith in myself as u do. Thanks for all your support, solutions, answers, help, always faithful prayers for me, shaping me, giving me the opportunities to develop existing & discover new talents, ur wisdom, guidance, etc etc so much more...I pray that I can continue what you started in me and can lead the way you do..or even greater... Only God can reward such effort...thank you..

Thank you to all my friends that YOU have given me the opportunity to meet and know closer. It's been such a privilege and pleasure to meet such wonderful and colourful people and adds flavour to my life. Sometimes I don't realise this until you're not around me anymore. Thank you for your: friendship, support for me, trust in me, encouragements, presence, shoulders to cry on, ears that are always ready to listen and many more. I can't say thank you enuf. You're all beautiful people and you have made me who I am today.

Thank you to Dakus for: ur care, love, patience, putting up with me when I'm impossible to put up with, laughing at my stupid jayusm/actions/crazy things, eating my food even tho' it's hard to swallow sometimes, wiping my tears away *literally*, be a shoulder for me to cry on, friendship, input, our arguments, sad/happy/difficult moments, a place where i can 'unload' stuff, ready to listen, for ur jayusm, for being who you are. I cherish every moment and look forward to having more opportunities for us both to 'grow' as an individual so we can be stronger together. I've seen HIS works so great in your life, I'm proud of you & what u have achieved. You've come so far. Thank you for letting me get toknow ur family, so many cousins/elders to remember but I can't help it that I start to love them just by listening to the way you talk about them. I admire that so much from you. Keep pursuing HIS will, seek His vision. I'll continue in private for more details...*not for publication* hahaha.

That's all from me...

GBU
Muach muach ampe monyonggggggggggggggggg

'til next post...

Homesick...

Homesick <-- bukan sick of my home lho ya...

Gatau yah lg kenapa gua but I'm just missing home so much and my parents esp cos i don't get to see them much these days.

Now that I see my friends can get together with their family and enjoy their time. For me, I can't even remember last time we did this.

Manusia memang aneh...dulu pengennya jauh dr orang tua ngerasain 'bebas' tuh kayak apa...skrg pengennya deket ortu.

Situations change, ppl change and time cannot be turned backwards but one thing for sure sebanyak/sedikit apapun waktu yg ada I will use it wisely and spend as much time with them.

I've been so cengeng lately hiihihihi dunno why..maybe it's that time of the month but I can just cry my head off when I start thinking bout my parents...

Can't wait to go back to INDO...wish I could go back for 3 months...who knows maybe I could...hahahahaha...we shall see...

Ciao.

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Muah muach ampe monyonkkkkkkkk